Photo: On my walkway the other day, it’s too big of a promise, I’d say. 🙂
Happy Global Access Bars Day and Earth Month! A lot to celebrate!
Went to a client today – how can it get better?! It was so beautiful; she turned out to be a first-timer. At the beginning, I felt so much love (it’s weird like being in love for no reason), then I ‘received’ the word ‘allowance’, and then the question arrived: ‘What if it’s ok to be happy?’ For her these made sense.
And it’s my parents’ wedding day today; they have been divorced for a long time now. 🙂 I do not know why I remember everything, not everything, but some things. And it will be tomorrow an annual holiday in Russia probably celebrating the anniversary of the first human space flight (not a moon flight), achieved by Soviet cosmonaut Yuri Gagarin on April 12, 1961.
I am going for a trip to Hemsworth Land, and I am going with a heartbroken new, I could say, friend by now (where I am from, we are not rushing to call someone a friend too fast, we have a word for it’s ‘someone I know’ that we use more often).
I was buying her amazing products for a while; that’s how we connected. She was in a deep…hole when we started talking last year. Firstly, my worldview seemed to be worlds apart from hers, and I was being astonished that she still kept coming back regardless. She was in a much-impossible situation (my logical mind would’ve said there’s no way it’s going to work out), but I kept presenting, being the space that there’s always something else possible. She probably didn’t believe it, but when success eventually happened, I could tell: she realised that here is something more possible in the world than our than our rational mind can contain.
And now the heartbreak happened; I breathe out deeply every time I think of the heaviness, she’s in. She planned her whole life around him, she said he is everything I ever wanted in my partner. We all know that feeling, or maybe not all; I know at least one who has never experienced a heartbreak. He just received love, without effort. Oh, I realised he had heart surgery when he was 5 years old, so his heart was all broken long before he grew up. If you’re wondering who could break a 5-year old’s heart, it’s parents, not willingly of course, one could say it was life. However, he has the least trauma and drama in him as a result of not having it in his adulthood.
Hemsworth Land? It’s Byron Bay, surely. I do that often, have my own name for places and things do not mind me pls. 🙂 Brisbanelanders already know that. It’s an Australian thing to rename everything, I must be fitting in.:) I have seen them there a couple of times during all those years, two different ones, and I’m not going there very often the least to say. Must be their playground. I realised I always seem to go there for someone else, because someone wants to go.
She is a surfer, so for her that’s the place to go to, although there are also a lot of memories for her 22″””`1. (these numbers were typed by my cat, Cosmo Kiss in case these mean smth to you). 🙂 Being a surfer, she has probably a lot better connection to everything than she ever realises or acknowledges.
In some cases, people who do not believe in anything or practice anything it’s even easier, because they do not have any expectations either. Actually, they have one kind; ‘it’s all gone now, there’s no way out, that’s the end’ etc. They suffer a lot. Being somewhat aware, you’re just more willing to face the pain put it in front of you and next at least attempt to put your focus on healing not the pain. Awareness of anything is already almost a win. So if you acknowledge your behaviour, illness or addiction, healing has begun.
I could run her bars, but she hasn’t asked for it.
I’ve been in question for all this time. What can I be here? I put a lot of trust in nature and its contributions towards her as well.
What is possible beyond that pain? Beyond that grief? Beyond that dream? Beyond that love? If these questions applied to you: Did your breathing get easier a little, a lot?
I am asking: What space can I be for the change she is asking for?
For her it’s too early to suggest appreciating what was, as there’s still a little hope in her, or rather a lot, that it’s going to go back to where it was. Everything is always possible. In perspective, she’s quite lucky to be able to experience that love, as some never will—or don’t even know to desire it.
I don’t think I’ve seen Byron Bay in the list of 415 places people are reading from—so no catch-ups this time, lol. The closest I’ve seen is Coffs Harbour, or actually the Gold Coast, according to Google Analytics.
If you need help, ask for it!!!
If you want to contribute to someone in your life…what if you being there with them is enough? What if you trust that?
What would it be to be a lot of light to be able to be the Space…for ourselves and for those that are asking for it?
And the spaceship Artemis 2 landed today! What a day! How can it get better?
Music: Mellow keeps coming for whatever reason, and I do not mind. YouTube just gave it to me before I started writing. Is that some kind of a trend, to make songs short? Is it to get more views? 🙄